R43 - We were born to break the doors down

[with_my_teacup]

I have plenty to hide, most of you know that. I hide it in plain sight, some of you know that.

You can ask whatever; I'm game.

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[with_my_teacup]

My baby.

I wish we'd met when we were both younger. But if you hadn't gone through the figurative and literal fire...you wouldn't be you. I'd have killed to make sure you had what you needed. Touch; affection; food. I'd have tried to make you turn out a lot less like me.

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[fridgetothefire]

[I'd have killed. The part of her that was safe and saved while Magneto destroyed Vinnitsya still wants that, still loves that. The part of her that was crushed by what he became is wary of it. But she'd kill for him too. So that's alright.]

I like being who I am, on balance. And I have what I need now.

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[with_my_teacup]

That's all right then.

You love me?

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[fridgetothefire]

I love you so much.

I gave Erik a #1 Dad mug for Christmas, but only because you feel more like my mom. Or what it felt like a mom ought to be.

[There's no push-pull of authority and fear and neediness and eagerness to prove herself with him, none of the taut balance she associates with fatherhood even when it works well. He's just - safety, warmth, comfort. An easy understanding she always wanted from Magda, and never got - although that part, at least, was no one's fault. They never had as much in common as Magneto thought they did.]

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[with_my_teacup]

Yes. [That's how he feels, on the balance.]

I'm entirely all right with that.

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[fridgetothefire]

I feel like everything's going to be alright, with you.

[She laughs, softly, grins.]

No pressure.

[Because they're the same person; she gets it from Ben and sometimes other people, and it's heavy, but it's precious.]